Not I, But You 1988

Not I, but You

(1 Corinthians 13:1-8)

If love is patient, why won’t I wait?  
If love is kind, why do I hate?

If love is not jealous, why do I want?  
If love is not proud, why do I flaunt?

If love is not selfish, why won’t I share? 
If love is not rude, why don’t I care?

If love is not demanding, why do I shout?  
If love is not touchy, why do I pout?

If love holds no grudges, when others do wrong?  
Why do I carry resentments so long?

If love is eager to believe in the best,  
why am I anxious to accuse and to test?

If love never fails, why does it for me? 
As hard as I try; this love I can’t be.

Lord, help me to surrender and change my view, 
and teach me to pray... 

“Lord, not I…but You!”

Wish Upon A Star 1986

As each new day comes to an end,
a page of our live is through.
And as each new star comes out at night,
a wish is wished for you.
Though there's many miles between us,
and things aren't exactly the same.
I hope you're happy in all you do,
happiness without pain.
I know the moments we no longer share,
but the memories lie at heart.
And in my most treasured moments,
you played a special part.
So I wish the very best for you and all my love I send.
And leave you with my prayer for success,
until we meet again.
1986

Grey Clouds 1985

The grey clouds that block my blue skies,

remind me of you.

The walls you surround me with,

you built brick by brick.

Until I slowly became trapped inside...

Inside a love, I thought was sincere.

But it was a game to you,

a very selfish game, that plays with the heart...mine.

Unfortunately, breaking down those walls, 

has taken much longer than it did to put up.

And my heart still bears the scars 

of your selfish game.

And the memories, like grey clouds,

still block my blue skies.

While I feel the pain of watching you turn and walk away,

leaving me alone, in the midst of laughter...

that wasn't mine.

1985

The Test 1985

Those special words we all love to hear,
were spoken that very night.
The feeling of his presence near,
everything felt right.
That final stroke of midnight,
the tear in my eye...
wanting to hold time still forever,
but knew it was good-bye.
He said this separation,
was a test of our love
and if the distance came between us,
it wasn't meant by God above.
For me, the miles have not interfered,
or make me love you any less.
And by the time I see you again,
I will have passed my hardest test.
But you, I see a distance,
have we been apart too long?
Are we about to fail this test
or can we still hold on?
1985

Define Me 1985

To some, I am  a friend, that listens and understands.
Giving all I'm able to give, and seldom in demand.
To others, I am a leader, my footsteps they may follow.
who does their best today and hopes to improve tomorrow.
To some, I am a follower, looking to those who lead,
learning from the examples of  the ones who will succeed.
To others, I'm just a person, who is just like anyone else.
Yet unique in my own way, with a different story to tell.
To some, I'm a mature adult, who has some wisdom to give.
But some still see me as a child, with a whole life yet to live.
But to the one, I care most about, tell me what is true...
You mean the world to me, what am I to you?
1985

Too Late 1984

I guess I waited around too long,
I thought I had you but now you're gone.
I wish that I could be with you,
but it's too late,
you're with someone new.
I see you together, everyday,
trying hard not to look your way.
But it's too hard,
I cannot hide,
these feelings I hold deep inside.
I want to remember how we used to be,
how happy I was when you were with me.
But it's too late,
those days are gone.
I'm sorry now, I was wrong.
1984

Once 1983

You hold her, 

as you once held me.

You kiss her,

as you once kissed me.

You love her,

as you once loved me.

I hurt now, 

as you once did.

I once forgot,

as you remembered.

I now remember,

but you have forgotten.

1983

Silent Nights 1983

As I stand by the window,
looking outside.
I remember the moments,
you were by my side.
Those times we shared,
you listened and cared.
Now I wish upon a star,
wishing you close and not so far.
A silent night brings thoughts of you,
wondering if your thinking too.
1983

The Beach 1982

A brilliant place, the edge of land. The warmth of sun-kissed sand. 

Cool breezes, soft and fair. A salty smell in the air.

A roaring voice cries aloud, yet sentimental to it's crowd.

A sky so vast with colors unknown, pulling me in and making it home.

1982

In the Beginning...

Creating Something Beautiful takes time and effort,

patience and practice. 

Dedication to begin and not quit,

until it is finished. 

It means making mistakes along the way

and learning from them, perfecting them again and again.

It means being able to reach your final destination and know...

that it was truly worth it all.

1996